In retrospect
anyways, I wasn’t wanting to
do it. Except
maybe to undo

my old wanting-to
which (I thought I could) break–
You know, swap out the undo
pleasures for done ones, per say.

I thought I could break you
down. And that’s exactly
what I wanted to say
if, afterwards, you asked

me exactly
what I was doing.
Afterwards, you asked
if I’d like to see a movie.

I knew what I wasn’t doing
and what I did, except
Yes, I did want to see a movie
in retrospect.